1st Clothing Goal

I bought 2 pairs of size 20 jeans a year ago.  One fit like a glove.  I loved it because I thought I had gone down a pant size.  The other one I couldn't even meet the button to the hole.  Of course I didn't try it on in the dressing room because the other one fit.  Ugh.  I love them.  I want to wear them.  So I will.  Soon enough.  Goals are good.  Pants that fit like a glove are better.

1 Month Down

I officially completed my first month with Weight Watchers tonight.  It was a great weigh in day!  I have lost a total of 9.2 lbs for my first month.  That is awesome considering I gained a lb. last week.  I did my monthly measuring as well and I was pleasantly surprised.  I lost inches everywhere, but mostly my hip area, 4 inches!

(WARNING: SKIP THE NEXT PARAGRAPH IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT DETAILED DESCRIPTIONS OF UNWANTED FAT)

Calling it my "Hip" area is a misnomer.  I have no hips.  While we are on the subject of what I DON'T have, I also don't have a butt, but I will talk about that disturbing part of my body in another post.  I don't want induce vomiting.  It's the way God made me.  He made my dad the same way.  This brings me to my most bothersome body part.  For the lack of a better word, I dislike my FUPA.  Don't know what it is, click the link,  you may not want to know what it is though, so I am warning you it's not pretty.  So when I say I've lost four inches off of my hips it's really that other part,  I am ECSTATIC! 

OK, back to the less gross,  Amazingly not surprising is that the part of my body with the least amount of loss is my bust.  Not surprised at all.  The girls have a mind of their own.  The husband is totally OK with them staying just the way they are and for now so am I. 

I am about 3 lbs away from my first official goal, 5% loss.  That is a total of 12 lbs for those not fast on the subtraction.  I have other personal goals I will post separately. 

I will say I am not as hungry as I was 2 weeks ago.  I am still trying to learn what is best to eat and to use the point calculator instead of taking what is on the food box or the generic food in the tracker. 

Sincerely Hungry,

Kalena

-6.0

I am down 6 lbs!  I also got my first sticker!  The five pound star!  It's all very exciting.

I will admit it hasn't been easy.  I am hungry.  I have been able to see stuble changes.  I know that my Route 44 water with lime is my lifeline.  I can tell a difference a HUGE difference in my hunger level on whether or not I've had my water.  I've been drinking a Sonic water every work day for a year and a half now.  I just never noticed my snacking habits until this week. 

The other observation I have made in the last two weeks is that fruit is just as sweet as, say, a cookie.  Or maybe, I just can't remember what a cookie tastes like. 

Either way,  I am 6 lbs lighter and a little more hungry.

Big, Blonde and Beautiful

But I don't want to be anymore. 

Well I mean,  just the 'big' part.  I don't want to be that anymore.  So I am going to do something about it.  Or better,  I have started to do something about it. 

On January 27th, I joined Weight Watchers.  I would like to tell you it is my first time in the program but it's not.  My first was back in 2000 or so.  I was a 17 year old and I took my Aunt Lisa's books and followed the point system religiously.  I lost a ton of weight.  I was my skinniest I had/have ever been when I started college at Stephen F. Austin State University in Fall of 2001.  I know what you are thinking.  "You gained the freshman 15 didn't you?!?!".  Nope.  I actually lost 15 more lbs. my freshman year.  Then I really was the skinniest I had ever been.  It was after I moved off campus that the weight started creeping back up.  Then in January of 2004, six months before my best friend was to get married, I joined again.  This time I went to the meetings.  For a few months.  I lost around 20lbs. but as I indulged in Kelly's wedding cake I kissed WW goodbye.  And the 20lbs + said "hello".

In the six years since my last Weight Watchers experience I have graduated college,  worked as an insurance rep (5 years I will never get back), married my college sweetheart (I am his high school sweetheart!), bought a house and had a major career change.  I am ready to be a mom and there is a major hurdle I need to overcome before that will be a reality.

I can't get pregnant because I am fat. 

It's sad but true.  The saddest part is that even though I know God has called me to be a mom, I am struggling, I mean STRUGGLING, to lose weight.  It was May 2010 that my doctor told me that I was not ovulating due to my excessive weight.  Eight months ago.  I sat and chewed on the doctor's statement, and an endless line of cookies, for EIGHT MONTHS and did nothing!  I've done what is easy for the last eight months.  I am ready to do what is hard. I hope this blog serves as a way for me to stay accountable to my goal.  Nothing will be left off the table.  NOTHING.  I am going to let it all hang out there.  Pictures, scale numbers and the dirty little secrets no fat person wants the world to know.  It's all going to be here.

I'm not gonna lie.

I am one hungry blonde.